I think I have finally fully recovered from that sickness -.-"
Yup you heard me right, I thought I needed an English nickname a long time ago but I just couldn't come out with any good idea. The reason I need one is that my name is very hard to be called and remembered by others especially strangers @_@. So I guess having one is not a bad idea at all eh? From today onwards, you can call me Shack, S-H-A-C-K V( ^.^)V. You can also pronounce my screen name "zLz" as "Shack" too from now on, thanks!
Sunday, September 2, 2007
Friday, August 31, 2007
Never worse
Monday, 27 August, 2007
It was a hell-ya-it-rocks night. Some say a gathering night won't be perfect without sake (erm... olden days in the the east??) or beer, but we did it just fine with FOOD and laughters and crappings and games and anime and songs. I reached WC's house at around 2 p.m. And as expected that ultimate-sleeperz-No. 2 was still sleeping =.= and I was the first to arrive. It didn't matter anyway, I would end up doing nothing at home in the first place. And so I greeted his brother, crapped a little, tried to LAN my laptop with his desktop for DoTA but... oh well... (ahem... I'm no computer geek...). After messing with the connection setup and LAN cable and such we finally gave up. Grabbed his Nintendo DS (seriously I wanted this jewel so much T_T) and tried out Final Fantasy III, Final Fantasy XII, and a third-person shooter... And then he woke up, crapped, transfered anime and songs (endless stacked with endless came endless nightmare, I'm crapping), and then B, JL, Supa V, and KH came eventually. Nothing much to talk about really since we are just some boys, oops, TEENAGE boys ahem... What else can a group of BOYS do anyway. So all the fun and food until 10 p.m. when I finally went home. Too bad that one of our gang members, TF couldn't make it, sure miss him a lot. In the end? I've "earned" much today, apart from bowls and bowls of steamboat (this makes me thinked of a funny scene, I asked WC's mother whether the "fish-stomach" is "pork-skin" (what the heck are those O_O) HAHAHAHA, so paiseh), I've got new anime to watch, tons of new Jap kor to listen, happy. And I want to give thanks and appreciate everything WC's mother has done for us, without the steamboat gathering once in a while I just feel like we will get farther and farther away, looking forward to the next gathering guys! ^.^
Ahem... Back to cover story: Disaster Strikes zLz on This Beautiful Morning. Woke up at 5 o'clock as usual. My throat got really pain and my nose didn't feel quite right, guess it was the effect of extreme consumption of curry, fried food, ice kacang, and ice cream in the previous two consecutive nights. Forced myself to washup and show a normal face to my parents (I don't think they notice it hehe), and off to Pee Jay. And that was just the beginning of one whole disastrous day in my life. First of all, take note please. An LRT fare from Jelatek station to Asia Jaya station is RM 2.40. Ok done. After that when I reached Asia Jaya I made one of the stupid'est and most regrettable decisions in my life. When I saw that feeder bus stopped right at time I was so happy, I thought that in anyway I won't be going to classes today (not with my current condition) so I guess it would do no harm if I reach my hostel late. Normally I would have taken a ride on taxi so that I can catch the MC bus to Uni to have my early class on Mondays, but today is special (heck it's sooo special that I don't want it to happen again -.-). And so I thought I was gonna save some money this time (the feeder bus fare is only RM 1 relative to taxi which is about RM3.50 every Monday). And because of my naive'ness (I never take a bus to PD from Asia Jaya, to PA yes, but not to PD) I actually got on to the bus without really knowing the bus's route (but I heard that it can take me to PD, and MC is near PD). And hooha here comes the Malaysian's Worst Scenario, the bus went straight pass MC at the used-to-be-roundabout near PD, with me staring blankly to MC O_O""". "Calm down, dude" I kept telling myself... Grabbing my backpack firmly I didn't know what should I do, and the bus seemed never stopped along the way and it went straight farther and farther away from the places that I know (to be frankly my usually-hang-out places are just around MC, PD, Seksyen 17, and SS2). Imagine yourself engulfed by strangers and unknown places on a moving bus, and it has gotten faster! It seemed like those strangers around me were laughing at me, with their jaws wide opened and sharp claws waving around (you played too many games dude). Arghh... Scarier than The Thing and Fatal Frame and The Eye or whatever. And I was finding a place where I could get off, but I dare not press the bell until someone did (so I guess I missed a few stations that I can actually get down halfway huh?), and if I'm not mistaken the bus stopped somewhere near Eastin Hotel (where in heaven were I?). Got down from the bus, took a good look down the path, w-h-a-t a n-i-c-e h-i-g-h-w-a-y. (o.o"") How am I suppose to walk all the way back? And I can't guarantee that I can backtrack in anyway since the bus took quite some turns before it reached here. So I crossed the h-i-g-h-w-a-y (ahem... can I fly? Guess how I actually crossed it XD), and waited for a taxi. But another disaster, it's a h-i-g-h-w-a-y dude, how am I suppose to get a taxi in the middle of a h-i-g-h-w-a-y??? I waited for more than half an hour, not any taxi stopped by -.-. And so I went straight towards the petrol station nearby, and suddenly a Metrobus stopped by. "Thank god" I was thinking, but then... another disaster Zzz. After getting on to the bus I just digged out ninety cents to the uncle, I was really stunned and not knowing what to do when he asked me "Mana pergi?" (In this case I don't deny that I was cheating the uncle since ninety cents is definitely not enough for me to go back to MC, but in the first place I didn't even know how is the bus's route and whether it will take me to where I want, so...), I answered hesitatedly "Jalan Universiti" in a SOFT tone (I don't think I can even hear my own voice -.-"), I was really scared cause I didn't even know where I wanted to go! "Apa?" "Ja... Jalan Universiti", louder this time. He somehow didn't seem quite understand where in hell is that but he just pointed his finger towards the front and ask "sana"? (I guess he was asking whether is it only a few stations away -.-") and "thank god" again I answered "Yea yea!". Sat quietly waiting the bus to take me further from the h-i-g-h-w-a-y I was sooo worried, each time the bus stopped that uncle took a look at me, and I tried to avoid his eyes as though he was asking "Belum turun keh? Hehehe *monster jaw wide opened and claws waving around again*". AT LAST I couldn't stand it anymore and got down at a station not so far from where I got on, at least it was not in the middle of the h-i-g-h-w-a-y (I have fear seeing this word from now on...) anymore. Finally got down from that monsters-fillet bus and yet I found myself reached another section of HELL, "What the... What *!&%&amp;amp;*@!&* is this place!!!???" I kept slapping myself... in my heart. Trying to make myself calm and not looking like an idiot to the passerbys was hard. As I was figuring out what to do something caught my eyes, I saw Help University College in distance, now WHERE IS THIS PLACE!? Wahahahaha (I was so helpless and hopeless Zzz, such an idiot). I waited for more than half an hour before I got another taxi (someone actually wanted tooo cut the queue but LUCKILY he didn't do it cause I can't guarantee what would I do in such circumstances with SUCH mood in head *evil grins*). "Oh, Jalan Universiti? Dari Asia Jaya? "how on earth did you get to here!?"<<-- translated to english"... Hahaha, I had a short chat with the driver, he is a friendly kind. My mood has gotten better (but my sickness has not, I'm getting sick'er =.=). Oh well, reached MC at almost nine o'clock (I should be late by now if I ever attended classes Zzz), another RM 7.50. Reached my room finally and straight jumped on to bed before started counting the stupid'ty-level of me today, wasted RM 1 + RM 0.90 + RM 7.50 = RM 9.40 in 2+ hours time in the morning "to get a tour around Pee Jay" wtf... Slept without thinking much Zzz.
Skipped whole day from classes and watched Ouran High School Host Club, finished the whole anime at night (and yeap it rocks), and started a new anime, Saikano (not so new anyway, an anime back in 2003)
Tuesday, 28 August, 2007
A boring and forgettable day, finished Saikano by bed time. I was so speechless. I didn't expect these much from this anime but... I hope I can come out with a review of it soon. Somehow, tonight I am happy, because of some "thing", hehe. DotA'ed with room mate till 3 a.m.
Wednesday, 29 August, 2007
Didn't really plan to attend classes again today but I think I had to at least go to the campus to redeem my Public Speaking certificate. Nope I didn't win any prizes and it was an "awful" experience so forget about it. And just when I thought I came all the way walking to campus from MC I might as well online "for a little while" since I've been disconnected from the online world for days. But I guess "a little while" here simply means all the way up till 7 p.m. when everyone else is gone and the officer had to warn "Sorry, time's up." Spent most of the time chatting with K and doing some routine surfing... Went back MC and DoTA'ed with room mate till 3 o'clock in the morning... Dead.
Thursday, 30 August, 2007 (a bit messy, sorry)
Sometimes, it's not that I don't want to smile and crap all around but how could you smile in such situations?:
Got ffk'ed by "someone" and waited till 4 o'clock to only have my breakfast. Heard my coursework marks and couldn't bare to see them anymore. Drove me to Soo's house just to meet him, and what I got was "Grooo....(sleeping) All I can do for you now is to give you some "liong sui"(herbal tea??)" and sleep again (okay I get the isi tersirat part for the "liong sui" and I didn't deny). Heck I came all the way from my hostel just to get this answer? I have came to meet you man! My buddy!? We've never met for so long and this is what I get. Fine, went out and left. Took a taxi all the way back to MC again, wasted. Heard some bad news from the taxi driver, so I have decided to go home early today. As expected, traffic jam and human jam all around. Almost got cooked and became roti canai in the Metrobus. Another long jam at Jalan Hulu Kelang on my way home, sien Zzz. Was so looking forward to at least "some activities" tonight (big, I mean BIG day dude, MERDEKA!~ whatever...), another disappointment. Everyone went back to hometown, I guess it couldn't be helped anyway. And my parents slept so darn early today (did they even realize that today we've got fireworks to watch? sien), so I guess I'll just skip my plan too. Sat back and online at home, what a super boring Merdeka. Happy Birthday brother, though I hate you (I mean your natives) but at least you brought calms throughout the years, you have my thanks.
It was a hell-ya-it-rocks night. Some say a gathering night won't be perfect without sake (erm... olden days in the the east??) or beer, but we did it just fine with FOOD and laughters and crappings and games and anime and songs. I reached WC's house at around 2 p.m. And as expected that ultimate-sleeperz-No. 2 was still sleeping =.= and I was the first to arrive. It didn't matter anyway, I would end up doing nothing at home in the first place. And so I greeted his brother, crapped a little, tried to LAN my laptop with his desktop for DoTA but... oh well... (ahem... I'm no computer geek...). After messing with the connection setup and LAN cable and such we finally gave up. Grabbed his Nintendo DS (seriously I wanted this jewel so much T_T) and tried out Final Fantasy III, Final Fantasy XII, and a third-person shooter... And then he woke up, crapped, transfered anime and songs (endless stacked with endless came endless nightmare, I'm crapping), and then B, JL, Supa V, and KH came eventually. Nothing much to talk about really since we are just some boys, oops, TEENAGE boys ahem... What else can a group of BOYS do anyway. So all the fun and food until 10 p.m. when I finally went home. Too bad that one of our gang members, TF couldn't make it, sure miss him a lot. In the end? I've "earned" much today, apart from bowls and bowls of steamboat (this makes me thinked of a funny scene, I asked WC's mother whether the "fish-stomach" is "pork-skin" (what the heck are those O_O) HAHAHAHA, so paiseh), I've got new anime to watch, tons of new Jap kor to listen, happy. And I want to give thanks and appreciate everything WC's mother has done for us, without the steamboat gathering once in a while I just feel like we will get farther and farther away, looking forward to the next gathering guys! ^.^
Ahem... Back to cover story: Disaster Strikes zLz on This Beautiful Morning. Woke up at 5 o'clock as usual. My throat got really pain and my nose didn't feel quite right, guess it was the effect of extreme consumption of curry, fried food, ice kacang, and ice cream in the previous two consecutive nights. Forced myself to washup and show a normal face to my parents (I don't think they notice it hehe), and off to Pee Jay. And that was just the beginning of one whole disastrous day in my life. First of all, take note please. An LRT fare from Jelatek station to Asia Jaya station is RM 2.40. Ok done. After that when I reached Asia Jaya I made one of the stupid'est and most regrettable decisions in my life. When I saw that feeder bus stopped right at time I was so happy, I thought that in anyway I won't be going to classes today (not with my current condition) so I guess it would do no harm if I reach my hostel late. Normally I would have taken a ride on taxi so that I can catch the MC bus to Uni to have my early class on Mondays, but today is special (heck it's sooo special that I don't want it to happen again -.-). And so I thought I was gonna save some money this time (the feeder bus fare is only RM 1 relative to taxi which is about RM3.50 every Monday). And because of my naive'ness (I never take a bus to PD from Asia Jaya, to PA yes, but not to PD) I actually got on to the bus without really knowing the bus's route (but I heard that it can take me to PD, and MC is near PD). And hooha here comes the Malaysian's Worst Scenario, the bus went straight pass MC at the used-to-be-roundabout near PD, with me staring blankly to MC O_O""". "Calm down, dude" I kept telling myself... Grabbing my backpack firmly I didn't know what should I do, and the bus seemed never stopped along the way and it went straight farther and farther away from the places that I know (to be frankly my usually-hang-out places are just around MC, PD, Seksyen 17, and SS2). Imagine yourself engulfed by strangers and unknown places on a moving bus, and it has gotten faster! It seemed like those strangers around me were laughing at me, with their jaws wide opened and sharp claws waving around (you played too many games dude). Arghh... Scarier than The Thing and Fatal Frame and The Eye or whatever. And I was finding a place where I could get off, but I dare not press the bell until someone did (so I guess I missed a few stations that I can actually get down halfway huh?), and if I'm not mistaken the bus stopped somewhere near Eastin Hotel (where in heaven were I?). Got down from the bus, took a good look down the path, w-h-a-t a n-i-c-e h-i-g-h-w-a-y. (o.o"") How am I suppose to walk all the way back? And I can't guarantee that I can backtrack in anyway since the bus took quite some turns before it reached here. So I crossed the h-i-g-h-w-a-y (ahem... can I fly? Guess how I actually crossed it XD), and waited for a taxi. But another disaster, it's a h-i-g-h-w-a-y dude, how am I suppose to get a taxi in the middle of a h-i-g-h-w-a-y??? I waited for more than half an hour, not any taxi stopped by -.-. And so I went straight towards the petrol station nearby, and suddenly a Metrobus stopped by. "Thank god" I was thinking, but then... another disaster Zzz. After getting on to the bus I just digged out ninety cents to the uncle, I was really stunned and not knowing what to do when he asked me "Mana pergi?" (In this case I don't deny that I was cheating the uncle since ninety cents is definitely not enough for me to go back to MC, but in the first place I didn't even know how is the bus's route and whether it will take me to where I want, so...), I answered hesitatedly "Jalan Universiti" in a SOFT tone (I don't think I can even hear my own voice -.-"), I was really scared cause I didn't even know where I wanted to go! "Apa?" "Ja... Jalan Universiti", louder this time. He somehow didn't seem quite understand where in hell is that but he just pointed his finger towards the front and ask "sana"? (I guess he was asking whether is it only a few stations away -.-") and "thank god" again I answered "Yea yea!". Sat quietly waiting the bus to take me further from the h-i-g-h-w-a-y I was sooo worried, each time the bus stopped that uncle took a look at me, and I tried to avoid his eyes as though he was asking "Belum turun keh? Hehehe *monster jaw wide opened and claws waving around again*". AT LAST I couldn't stand it anymore and got down at a station not so far from where I got on, at least it was not in the middle of the h-i-g-h-w-a-y (I have fear seeing this word from now on...) anymore. Finally got down from that monsters-fillet bus and yet I found myself reached another section of HELL, "What the... What *!&%&amp;amp;*@!&* is this place!!!???" I kept slapping myself... in my heart. Trying to make myself calm and not looking like an idiot to the passerbys was hard. As I was figuring out what to do something caught my eyes, I saw Help University College in distance, now WHERE IS THIS PLACE!? Wahahahaha (I was so helpless and hopeless Zzz, such an idiot). I waited for more than half an hour before I got another taxi (someone actually wanted tooo cut the queue but LUCKILY he didn't do it cause I can't guarantee what would I do in such circumstances with SUCH mood in head *evil grins*). "Oh, Jalan Universiti? Dari Asia Jaya? "how on earth did you get to here!?"<<-- translated to english"... Hahaha, I had a short chat with the driver, he is a friendly kind. My mood has gotten better (but my sickness has not, I'm getting sick'er =.=). Oh well, reached MC at almost nine o'clock (I should be late by now if I ever attended classes Zzz), another RM 7.50. Reached my room finally and straight jumped on to bed before started counting the stupid'ty-level of me today, wasted RM 1 + RM 0.90 + RM 7.50 = RM 9.40 in 2+ hours time in the morning "to get a tour around Pee Jay" wtf... Slept without thinking much Zzz.
Skipped whole day from classes and watched Ouran High School Host Club, finished the whole anime at night (and yeap it rocks), and started a new anime, Saikano (not so new anyway, an anime back in 2003)
Tuesday, 28 August, 2007
A boring and forgettable day, finished Saikano by bed time. I was so speechless. I didn't expect these much from this anime but... I hope I can come out with a review of it soon. Somehow, tonight I am happy, because of some "thing", hehe. DotA'ed with room mate till 3 a.m.
Wednesday, 29 August, 2007
Didn't really plan to attend classes again today but I think I had to at least go to the campus to redeem my Public Speaking certificate. Nope I didn't win any prizes and it was an "awful" experience so forget about it. And just when I thought I came all the way walking to campus from MC I might as well online "for a little while" since I've been disconnected from the online world for days. But I guess "a little while" here simply means all the way up till 7 p.m. when everyone else is gone and the officer had to warn "Sorry, time's up." Spent most of the time chatting with K and doing some routine surfing... Went back MC and DoTA'ed with room mate till 3 o'clock in the morning... Dead.
Thursday, 30 August, 2007 (a bit messy, sorry)
Sometimes, it's not that I don't want to smile and crap all around but how could you smile in such situations?:
Got ffk'ed by "someone" and waited till 4 o'clock to only have my breakfast. Heard my coursework marks and couldn't bare to see them anymore. Drove me to Soo's house just to meet him, and what I got was "Grooo....(sleeping) All I can do for you now is to give you some "liong sui"(herbal tea??)" and sleep again (okay I get the isi tersirat part for the "liong sui" and I didn't deny). Heck I came all the way from my hostel just to get this answer? I have came to meet you man! My buddy!? We've never met for so long and this is what I get. Fine, went out and left. Took a taxi all the way back to MC again, wasted. Heard some bad news from the taxi driver, so I have decided to go home early today. As expected, traffic jam and human jam all around. Almost got cooked and became roti canai in the Metrobus. Another long jam at Jalan Hulu Kelang on my way home, sien Zzz. Was so looking forward to at least "some activities" tonight (big, I mean BIG day dude, MERDEKA!~ whatever...), another disappointment. Everyone went back to hometown, I guess it couldn't be helped anyway. And my parents slept so darn early today (did they even realize that today we've got fireworks to watch? sien), so I guess I'll just skip my plan too. Sat back and online at home, what a super boring Merdeka. Happy Birthday brother, though I hate you (I mean your natives) but at least you brought calms throughout the years, you have my thanks.
Sunday, August 26, 2007
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Another midnight basketball. I used to stay up late and played till midnight, from 10 o'clock+ to 1 or 2 o'clock+, but today's special case. After that fabulous dinner I had (okay it's an ordinary full moon buffet but FOOD is all you need to cheer me up) I straight went to the basketball court and I haven't even warm up the chair inside my room, when my relative "broke in" and asked me out at 9 o'clock+, and there I am -.-". But seriously I was so darn full, who wouldn't after eating two huge plate of mee hun with curry, smoke pork, lamb, toufu, fish n chip, nugget, bla and bla bla bla..? And imagine how I was amazed by the fact that this buffet is somehow special and different from the typical ones, this one comes with a dessert section! I found cheese tarts! And I think I ate erm... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5... 7 or 8 of them? And some nyonya kuih such as "Malay Kuih" and that "9 layers Kuih" whatever they are called... And TWO big bowls of ABC Ice Kacang, holy cow...
And there I was jumping around shooting balls -.-". For a moment there I was worry cause those curry and Ice Kacang that I consumed kept rolling in my pity stomach in and out, but after a while I was totally in the "mode", guess I love basketball anyway. Today was not a bad match, and I went home early cause we started early. But still, early here simply means 12 o'clock XD.
Drank 3 full cups of water, 赞. Rest for a while, bathed, 赞. Drank another 2 full cups of cold water, 赞. And I believe the sleep after this will be 赞 as well.
And... Heck! I don't need no honey. NO HONEY I said, blekkk... Though I love sweet food especially desserts, but there are exceptions too. I DETEST honey and sweets themselves... Can't tell why, I just hate them XD.
So... Sorry J, NO HONEY. HAHAHA.
Oh before I go, I have recalled one good memory justnow. K, do you still remember the first time we talked and became friend? Hehehe... Nothing special to deliver here really... Just want you to think of the contrary of what you have written in your post there, if you know what am I trying to say.
And there I was jumping around shooting balls -.-". For a moment there I was worry cause those curry and Ice Kacang that I consumed kept rolling in my pity stomach in and out, but after a while I was totally in the "mode", guess I love basketball anyway. Today was not a bad match, and I went home early cause we started early. But still, early here simply means 12 o'clock XD.
Drank 3 full cups of water, 赞. Rest for a while, bathed, 赞. Drank another 2 full cups of cold water, 赞. And I believe the sleep after this will be 赞 as well.
And... Heck! I don't need no honey. NO HONEY I said, blekkk... Though I love sweet food especially desserts, but there are exceptions too. I DETEST honey and sweets themselves... Can't tell why, I just hate them XD.
So... Sorry J, NO HONEY. HAHAHA.
Oh before I go, I have recalled one good memory justnow. K, do you still remember the first time we talked and became friend? Hehehe... Nothing special to deliver here really... Just want you to think of the contrary of what you have written in your post there, if you know what am I trying to say.
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Dull, but I like it this way...
Woke up at 9:30 by those noisy workers Zzz Have tried to fall asleep again but I just can't do it. One of the main reasons I was not able to sleep was because I was shocked, nope not a crocodile hugging me but just that I found my throat was in extreme pain. It seems like my sickness has not gotten any better, but worse. I felt the air exhaled by me kinda hot, and my nose doesn't feel comfortable, is it a fever? Hmm... Anyway I didn't tell my parents about it, not important anyway.
Spent the afternoon watching some old clips which I have never been able to throughout the months after I have obtained them long ago. They are just some And 1 basketball show-off, a hong kong movie, and Guess. Just wanted to free out some spaces on my hard drive after watching them. A couple of minesweeping, DotA, and blogging... Nothing much really. And I am waiting for an event tonight, just an invitation to a full moon dinner in my place. Why this excitement? Cause there's food!
And yet tomorrow another much anticipated event, a gathering with secondary mates, steamboat dinner! Food! Again... (Shh though I'm sick, if my parents knew about it I don't think I get to eat all these -.-" Geez...).
Simple day, but I like it. Calm, quiet, do stuff I like, stay away from those hustle and problems throughout the week... How I wish I could be like this everyday, where I can runaway from everything. Though not quite enjoying in this way and kinda boring too, but at least no new troubles can be triggered.
Spent the afternoon watching some old clips which I have never been able to throughout the months after I have obtained them long ago. They are just some And 1 basketball show-off, a hong kong movie, and Guess. Just wanted to free out some spaces on my hard drive after watching them. A couple of minesweeping, DotA, and blogging... Nothing much really. And I am waiting for an event tonight, just an invitation to a full moon dinner in my place. Why this excitement? Cause there's food!
And yet tomorrow another much anticipated event, a gathering with secondary mates, steamboat dinner! Food! Again... (Shh though I'm sick, if my parents knew about it I don't think I get to eat all these -.-" Geez...).
Simple day, but I like it. Calm, quiet, do stuff I like, stay away from those hustle and problems throughout the week... How I wish I could be like this everyday, where I can runaway from everything. Though not quite enjoying in this way and kinda boring too, but at least no new troubles can be triggered.
Friday, August 24, 2007
So quiet...
Hmm... My sickness is recovering... But still have a mild running nose...
Woke up at 6:30 a.m. after some mild struggling, I was really surprised that I was able to wake up accordingly, and unlike what I used to do whenever I sleep late (I mean sleep "early") especially in cases like this, both me and H slept at 3+ a.m...
Well, it's still another morning, another day, and it's still true. Looking blank towards the textbooks and notes, well I guess there's no choice, it's my own false that I never study properly to prepare for today's tests huh?
And so all the usual bla bla bla until I get to school. It's strange that I didn't feel panic and sad at all, well not to say I'm happy but at least I have a normal mood today, and with some smiles of course. Perhaps it was because of all the crapping last night that I've finally picked up myself once again. Erm... Skipped every single class today, didn't really want to meet them (and her), and for study purpose (I seriously have no idea what in heaven did me and H do last night till 3 a.m., study*erm*? Play*nope*? I guess most of the parts are casual chit-chatting...)
Right until I stepped into the examination hall did I start to feel a strange aura nearby, I don't want to mention it here but it was so near... Nope not the pre-exam phobia and yada yada~ Heck just forget about it. So as for the tests today, I was really glad that I know to do most of the parts (in fact I know all of the questions) except for one stupid mistake ("ilusi optik") that I made for the FIRST question in my programming test, bah...
Right after the tests I've lost that intense feeling when I left the hall. Stayed alone for about an hour while H had his class. I don't know, but I've found that I can't stay alone anymore, am I still a small kid or what? I always needed someone to be with... AGAIN, I should drop this at once, forget about it.
Skipped another class, went home straight with H and played DotA with him all afternoon in his room, a good time to relax and forget all those unhappiness. After that just went home till now, a boring day indeed, but calm. That's what I like about simplicity...
Woke up at 6:30 a.m. after some mild struggling, I was really surprised that I was able to wake up accordingly, and unlike what I used to do whenever I sleep late (I mean sleep "early") especially in cases like this, both me and H slept at 3+ a.m...
Well, it's still another morning, another day, and it's still true. Looking blank towards the textbooks and notes, well I guess there's no choice, it's my own false that I never study properly to prepare for today's tests huh?
And so all the usual bla bla bla until I get to school. It's strange that I didn't feel panic and sad at all, well not to say I'm happy but at least I have a normal mood today, and with some smiles of course. Perhaps it was because of all the crapping last night that I've finally picked up myself once again. Erm... Skipped every single class today, didn't really want to meet them (and her), and for study purpose (I seriously have no idea what in heaven did me and H do last night till 3 a.m., study*erm*? Play*nope*? I guess most of the parts are casual chit-chatting...)
Right until I stepped into the examination hall did I start to feel a strange aura nearby, I don't want to mention it here but it was so near... Nope not the pre-exam phobia and yada yada~ Heck just forget about it. So as for the tests today, I was really glad that I know to do most of the parts (in fact I know all of the questions) except for one stupid mistake ("ilusi optik") that I made for the FIRST question in my programming test, bah...
Right after the tests I've lost that intense feeling when I left the hall. Stayed alone for about an hour while H had his class. I don't know, but I've found that I can't stay alone anymore, am I still a small kid or what? I always needed someone to be with... AGAIN, I should drop this at once, forget about it.
Skipped another class, went home straight with H and played DotA with him all afternoon in his room, a good time to relax and forget all those unhappiness. After that just went home till now, a boring day indeed, but calm. That's what I like about simplicity...
It was like yesterday, though yesterday is yesterday, today is today, and tomorrow will definitely be not as yesterday...
Thursday, August 23, 2007
I am still as sick, not in term of mind and spirit but also my body. My running nose has not gotten any better and so does my sore throat, it seems like a never-ending fight... I've decided to go to school today, not knowing how to face them. But I wanted to try, try to face and take the responsibility on what I've done. But quite "unfortunately" though, she did not come to class today. Can't say that I'm sad about it cause in fact I felt quite relax, despite that I'm still as sick. Oh well...
As expected, I tagged along with H and he kept asking me the same question over and over again. Before the class ends, I thought I've spoken a sentence that I never did before in my life. "H, can you please stay with me tonight? I need someone by my side...". Before I even realized what have I said, a kind and calm answer "Yes, come stay overnight at my place." For a moment there I had a strange feeling, feeling that I'm weak, indeed super weak as a guy... Do I even able to protect "her"? Bah...
I don't know, that's just my way. Whenever I feel down I hope that I can tag along with anybody, do anything they are doing without any specific purpose. zLz's way of running away from truth perhaps. This makes me think of Avril's voice "There's no other place when it comes to the truth..."... Why? Perhaps to avoid from keep bothered by the idea of "suicide" (I don't think I'd ever do that in another million years...), or I want to find a reason to live? Or a reason to laugh?
And there it goes, tonight I found it, I found my purpose of living, at least I know what I want to be like. Before going back to H's house S wanted to go to SS2 to change his spectacles and contact lens, well of course I went along without any opinion. I wanted to buy a new spectacles for long but my parents still can't afford it yet, so I was thinking like getting one on my own. But... Purr... As expected, what can you make out of a poor fellow like me? So I was just having fun trying new spectacles and did a small survey on the prices. And I even phoned my mom to ask if I can buy it, the answer is very much expected...
After all the fun and chit-chatting we went to eat. And yet I've discovered an interesting fact about S, nope he's neither Superman nor Sai Man Chai, it's just that I can actually crap a lot with him. In fact I've actually encountered such situation before whenever I met him and whenever we sit together and start crapping. Most probably both of us are "that kinda" crappers and H too can actually cope up, I actually feel comfortable and truly happy whenever I speak with these two people despite many deception (okay, maybe "misconception") about him. Yes he's that kinda fellow that you guys always talked about, but I am telling the truth, I feel comfortable with him, maybe I'm "that kinda fellow" too? (Another shocking discovery??) And Hoaala... All the sadness and sorrow before this just disappeared into nowhere, we just had a simple dinner of pork-mee and some teh tarik, and crapped all along. Maybe the main reason that I like to be with them is that we can crap without fearing that anyone in the group can't "cope up" with and we definitely have no boundary on what to crap on (if you DO understand what I mean hehe...), unlike when I'm with other people out there I can't actually "this open", and so I felt kinda stiff and "limiting" when I have a chat with someone else, AND IF you understand what I mean...
So much as to say, I am really thankful to this two unique friends. No they don't make my world shine but they certainly make me feel better at least for tonight... After all I'm just too weak to be all by myself and as useless, so I don't think I can be anything without the support of friends eh?
I believe I can smile and laugh when I go back to school tomorrow, and become the zLz that I once knew. Though the recent events might have made me grew stronger, more mature, and rational...
I am still as sick, not in term of mind and spirit but also my body. My running nose has not gotten any better and so does my sore throat, it seems like a never-ending fight... I've decided to go to school today, not knowing how to face them. But I wanted to try, try to face and take the responsibility on what I've done. But quite "unfortunately" though, she did not come to class today. Can't say that I'm sad about it cause in fact I felt quite relax, despite that I'm still as sick. Oh well...
As expected, I tagged along with H and he kept asking me the same question over and over again. Before the class ends, I thought I've spoken a sentence that I never did before in my life. "H, can you please stay with me tonight? I need someone by my side...". Before I even realized what have I said, a kind and calm answer "Yes, come stay overnight at my place." For a moment there I had a strange feeling, feeling that I'm weak, indeed super weak as a guy... Do I even able to protect "her"? Bah...
I don't know, that's just my way. Whenever I feel down I hope that I can tag along with anybody, do anything they are doing without any specific purpose. zLz's way of running away from truth perhaps. This makes me think of Avril's voice "There's no other place when it comes to the truth..."... Why? Perhaps to avoid from keep bothered by the idea of "suicide" (I don't think I'd ever do that in another million years...), or I want to find a reason to live? Or a reason to laugh?
And there it goes, tonight I found it, I found my purpose of living, at least I know what I want to be like. Before going back to H's house S wanted to go to SS2 to change his spectacles and contact lens, well of course I went along without any opinion. I wanted to buy a new spectacles for long but my parents still can't afford it yet, so I was thinking like getting one on my own. But... Purr... As expected, what can you make out of a poor fellow like me? So I was just having fun trying new spectacles and did a small survey on the prices. And I even phoned my mom to ask if I can buy it, the answer is very much expected...
After all the fun and chit-chatting we went to eat. And yet I've discovered an interesting fact about S, nope he's neither Superman nor Sai Man Chai, it's just that I can actually crap a lot with him. In fact I've actually encountered such situation before whenever I met him and whenever we sit together and start crapping. Most probably both of us are "that kinda" crappers and H too can actually cope up, I actually feel comfortable and truly happy whenever I speak with these two people despite many deception (okay, maybe "misconception") about him. Yes he's that kinda fellow that you guys always talked about, but I am telling the truth, I feel comfortable with him, maybe I'm "that kinda fellow" too? (Another shocking discovery??) And Hoaala... All the sadness and sorrow before this just disappeared into nowhere, we just had a simple dinner of pork-mee and some teh tarik, and crapped all along. Maybe the main reason that I like to be with them is that we can crap without fearing that anyone in the group can't "cope up" with and we definitely have no boundary on what to crap on (if you DO understand what I mean hehe...), unlike when I'm with other people out there I can't actually "this open", and so I felt kinda stiff and "limiting" when I have a chat with someone else, AND IF you understand what I mean...
So much as to say, I am really thankful to this two unique friends. No they don't make my world shine but they certainly make me feel better at least for tonight... After all I'm just too weak to be all by myself and as useless, so I don't think I can be anything without the support of friends eh?
I believe I can smile and laugh when I go back to school tomorrow, and become the zLz that I once knew. Though the recent events might have made me grew stronger, more mature, and rational...
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